Doing better today. I feel empowered by the Holy Spirit. After asking God for what I need, I have received it. Now I’m beginning to see victory on the horizon. But I still am plagued by these dreams! Last night I dreamt of… these same two girls. And yet, the venue was different. I still don’t fully understand what they mean.
I’m not too fond of relying on my own strength. Yesterday was proof of the fact that I need to be stronger. I need to learn to resist temptation.
The problem with that is the fact that, as an intellectual, I try to rationalize entering into sin. Alternatively, in moments of heated passion (an expression of love), the humanity of me sets in and my natural desires take over. That has always been my biggest demon. Sexual sin is my Achilles heel.
I must overcome. My life, spiritually, and physically, depends on it.
Crucifixion Type of Love
I want a love that was predestined before eternity
I want a love that was birthed in my mother’s womb
I want a love that is willing to give up this world for her
I want a love that is immaculate
I want a love that makes the angel’s wish they were in our shoes
I want a love that will make me pray to God and say
Who am I that YOU are mindful of me to bless me with her
I want a crucifixion type love
“This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it” (Psalm 118:24, NIV)
Many people are waiting for their circumstances to change in order to be happy and enjoy their lives. All the time I hear things like, “As soon as I get out of this problem, I’ll be happy.” “As soon as I lose ten pounds…as soon as my business grows…as soon as my child straightens up…” No, if you don’t put your foot down and decide to be happy right now, there will always be something to keep you from being happy.
God never intended for us to put off our happiness. We have a choice to make each and every day. We have to set our minds in the right direction. That’s why David said, “This is the day the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.” He was saying, “This is the day to be happy; not tomorrow, not when the weather clears up. Not next week, when I don’t have to work so hard. Not next month, when I make it through this difficult time.” No, choose to honor the Lord right now by choosing to enjoy your life. Get rid of the excuses and rejoice because this is the day that the Lord has made!
Gonna have to start writing on here pretty soon. I kind of miss tumblr. It’s helpful to lay out my thoughts. Even, I daresay, to understand them better.
Wow. Tonight was the kind of night you remind yourself to soak it up — the vivid colors, raw energy, and waves of emotion, because you’ll want to savor them when they’re gone. I’m so honored to be here, so blessed to know the people around me, and so thrilled to live by the grace I’ve been given….
What an authentic artist. I thank God for him, truly.
Awesome worship album. What an awesome way to give him praise.